Confessions continued

A few more confessions for you...

1) I'm a horrible Girlfriend

"Well.. okay, here goes.

When I got with my first ever serious boyfriend, it took me a while but then I'd thought I'd fallen 'in love'. It took me ages to build up the courage to tell him this and when I finally was going to, he dumped me. Because I was going to uni quite far away. Obviously, I was heart-broken.

I still fancied him for ages, but, you know.. got over it eventually, or allowed myself to believe as much anyway.

So, after a month or so of being a uni, I met this.. only way to put it.. heart-throb. Tall, slim, gorgeous eyes, fantastically wavey messy hair and a smile that sent tingles down my spine. He asked me out for a date, I agreed. After a while, we were seeing each other everyday.

Then I got scared and totally ignored him for two months. (I was told by all this friends that it was destroying him). So one drunken night, I texted him, he came running, and we had fun dancing. (This is like, 3-4 months after we'd met and done nothing but peck on the lips btw) and then I ignored him again for a month.

Then texted him randomly and we started to meet up again, slowly worked our way up to French kissing, then slept with him one drunken night (he protested, saying I was drunk and he didn't want to take advantage of me... but relented eventually) and then until uni finished for the semester - and the year - I lived with him over the summer.

Then he went to America for a semester.

And this is were I show how much of a bitch I am, because during all that time, I have fallen in love with this boy - and I mean real love this time. And he says the same too and I believe him. He's so insecure because his last GF fucked him over, and I've told him I'd never hurt him. We're even engaged.

I went home for a weekend and nearly slept with my ex-bf. As in nearly, I mean, he was millimetres away from being inside me. But I stopped it.

If someone loves someone as much as I claim to love him, how could I have done that to him?"

2) I said something I shouldn't have

"This is my first confession on the board. When I was at school I was totally in love with this girl. She didn't love me and back then because I was a lot younger I never realised that there was nothing I could do / have done to make her love me. I was never one of these guys with lots of confidence. I wasn't a loner, I had friends here and there but never really a group of friends that I hung around with. So I became close to HER mates in an attempt to get close to her. As a result we became friends. But I was so in love with her I would have done anything to get her. Eventually she found out about my feelings for her, and she told me we were just good friends and nothing more. This drove me mad but I couldn't let her go just like that so we stayed friends. It was so hard after that especially she fancied one of my oldest mates and flirted with him. Eventually before we both went off to college I made one last attempt to win her heart, and she still refused me, saying we could be friends but nothing more. That's when I said the thing to her that I regret the most, something along the lines of "If you'll never love me then I hope you die alone like i will". I don't know why i said it i guess I was just angry with her and i felt so strongly but i regretted it afterwards. She moved away because of college and I still regretted saying it. That was 5 years ago.

I eventually got over her, I went to college for a year but it didn't work out, but I found myself a job and met new friends etc, I've since been in two serious relationships and known happiness, which I never thought I would. Recently I bumped into her friend and asked how she was doing, it turns out that she is sick, she has developed multiple sclerosis and can hardly walk, and for the last year or so she has been getting worse. I remembered what I said to her that day and now it haunts me. Maybe I deserve to be alone."

3) I'm married but I love wanking

"I've been with my wife now 8 yrs and love her to bits. We enjoy sex together just not as often as I'd like. In between I tend to masturbate a lot. That's if you think once a day is a lot. I must orgasm at least once a day. Love to watch porn and pleasure myself. Would love to have a woman I've never met before watch me pleasuring myself, would love to watch her pleasure herself come to think of it."

4) Weird bisexual urges

"I'm a good looking young straight female but would like to experiment with females.....but i only want a hot blonde girl, no one else! redheads, blondes, Asian, oriental, black or other women don't turn me on in the slightest. I only get bisexual urges if its a hot blonde...how weird is that??"