Spurt (pun always intended)

Apologies for the recent delays in my entries. The truth is, I'm rather unwell. Influenza is a ghastly thing! Spent all of yesterday and the majority of today sleeping. My body is aching, there's a ball of phlegm in my body that needs clearing, head is pounding and cock is really disinterested. Ugh. And perhaps the worst thing of all, I was feeling incredibly horny yesterday. The bug seems to have run away with my testosterone.

I should ask for M's forgiveness. Ever since our vow of non-sexual obedience, I've become obsessed. Obsessed with getting M to spread their legs. Getting M to have that awesome sex we once bound ourselves too. M simply doesn't want to know! I've taken it upon myself to break M's composure in the face of this adversity, though I know it'll be difficult if not impossible. Of late I have spent many hours considering whether there are any loop holes to our no sex policy. 'what if I wank whilst we're talking, without me ever telling you?' Ha. Utter desperation.