We have accomodation. Not only that, accomodation in a rather posh area of West London.
And so, the journey truly begins.
I usually feel tired when i've been out in the capital. But today I came to realise, that London, for all the hustle and bustle, for all the buzz and the people swarming around, frantic, rapid, overlowing, can make you feel so lonely. It's the sort of place where you are constantly in the midst of other people and despite this you may never make eye contact. And lonliness is one of the most frightening things in the world (alongside the vision of Pam(ela) sucking off the punk rocker Tom(my) as he drove down what may have been a terribly busy motorway). Yes reader, you've seen it too.
And so, as of this Sunday my blog will come direct from the Capital. The epicentre of my revolution, the place where people carry an inability to give a shit and a place where this is perhaps its greatest virtue.
But that tingling feeling inside will keep me going, for now, I belong to nobody, merely to myself and I shall do what I like, with whomever I like. It feels great to be able to say that. To not give a bleedin damn about the others. And I hope this feeling lasts forever.
Flashback
Yesterday, the girl, myself and our friend went for an all-u-can-eat chinese buffet lunch. But, dear reader, you mustn't confuse this with the pokey corner takeaway that does two noodles and soup for £3.50, for what we ate was three courses of variety. And as we munched on the sesame chicken and dim sum, I posed the questions:
'Why do some people want to settle down whilst in their early twenties? What does it mean to 'settle down' and why do so many people stay in a relationship once the honeymoon is over. Don't we, as humans, have a right to an eternal honeymoon period?'
Think about these questions dear reader and send me a message with your comments.
Right now I feel exhausted, am going to bed and will see if I can answer these questions tomorrow. Answer them the way only a merry virgin could. Ta Ta.
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7 comments:
'settle down' now there is food for thought. I think for me it means that you accept that your partner is your and no one elses and that you are also theirs. I don't see what the problem is with settle down in your early twenties, I've often wondered why people associate 'settling down' with suddenl becoming boring and not able to life your life the way you want to.
Anonymous, i couldn't agree more! However I don't like the word 'Settling down' seems so 1920's. Truth be told no one really knows what lies round the corner of a relationship. Behind happy walls could lie a murderer, a cheater and a liar waiting to show their true colours. So for now, lets call it being with someone you feel so comfortable with - that living your own life the way you want to whilst still respecting eachother whether by lust, desire, love or all three. A moutful maybe, so perhaps we could christen it respect?
So Anonymous1, you are equating 'settling down' with being faithful. Does that mean people who have open relationships can never be settled? I don't know if there is a 'problem' with people settling down in their twenties, but it's not something I would do. I think youth is for a reason, it is the best time to get to know the person you are, that seedling inside that needs a drop or two of water. Reading over what i've written I can't help but think that i used to be so clogged up with this settling down theory up until a few years back. And yes, it can sound and look so good, but how many people do we know who have the same spark they had in their relationship at the beginning? I don't know any (and i'd love to see some, i really would!) When you embark on a relationship there is always something that has to give. Why can't we have it all...the spark, the partner, the life we always dreamt of. I think we are becomming lazy. We don't want to strive for something amazing and instead settle for something which is very good, just short of excellent. It's a shame really.
I believe that the person you choose to settle down with is the person who still makes you feel that spark and enables you to be the person you want to be. I agree that youth is for a reason but what is so wrong with sharing your youth with another person? being in a relationship doesn't mean that you cannot find out who you really are, infact it should be the complete opposite. I myself have recently begun a new relationship with someone after being in a very disasterous one!! this new man has made me discover who i really am and what i want to be whilst the previous boyfriend did nothing but stifle me and tell me who i should be This is the sole reason for my desire to 'settle down' with this man.
to the tainted visionary,
you talk about how you are alone and how it makes you feel alive yet my gut reaction suggests that you long for someone to be in your life yet perhaps you are not ready to settle down yourself.
your questions distract us addicted readers from what you are really trying to write...what you are really trying to tell us.
i will play your game and i will answer with clarity on what i think those answers should be but we all know that they are mearlly comments passed from one person to the next in order to open a debate and fuel our imaginations.
OFF WE GO...
settling down...i will never settle down yet i will spend the rest of mylife and commit heart body and sould to that person i love yet i will never settle down. does settling down merely depict a situation that two or more people are in. is it not just a word that makes one feel comfortable about that situation ...
AGE - why do some people settle down in their early twenties? maybe they have the experience that allows them to do just that..for i am ready to commit the rest of my life to one person and satisfy her desires yet i feel i have an ocean's worth of experience that now finally allows me to do this yet am i really that old...for i could not be much older than you tainted visionary..and if two people are ready to offer eachother everything then surely age does not matter.
the eternal honeymoon...i look forward to it...and those who cannot master it have yet to gain the experience to make it happen....
however next time around will be a different story again.
its all interlinked...
signed 'the corrupt idealist'
so if the term settling down simply means that you are comfortable in the situation you are in, why won't you ever settle down?? To use your definition of the term you will never be comfortable in that situation. Is this right?
When you meet the girl you want to spend the rest of your life with do you think its fair to her to never be comfortable with it? How would you feel if the shoes was on the other foot? How would you feel if your partner was committed to you but wasn't comfortable in the situation she was in?
I'm intrigued.....
Corrupt Idealist.
Perhaps you're right. But the truth is that i simply don't know. This blog stems directly from my ignorance. I don't know what it is i want to say. Not a single clue. Perhaps there's something you might like to say about me?
As for the superior declaration you are quite obviously seeking in my blog, i doubt there is one. Everything i do and most of my thoughts you have read (and i hope you're an avid reader!)
This is my place to throw out everything that's inside my head, for the public to devour. And then i want to know what it tastes like.
It's the biggest compliment that people like yourself can comment on this blog, that it attracts responses. And this alone means that i'm not as lonely as i imagined.
I like creating discussion, these are all issues which i feel are important. But if you feel like you're a puppet on my string, then you need to stop reading this blog. I won't take responsibilty for your choices.
Settling down- not this monster again! i think it's about when you accept your situation-wouldn't you agree? And you say you never will settle...so what does that tell us? that you might be unfaithful, that you might get bored and do nothing about it, that you might turn your life into a compromise? What would 'she' think if she heard this?
What i'm trying to say is that if you dont think youll ever settle down, then you will never be to committ heart and soul. Never.
Age- i admire anybody with the strength to make such important decisions about their life at such a young age, and perhaps it'll be the best decision you ever make. Then again, perhaps it won't be.
Security is a great feeling, i too have felt that, but is it so good at the price of boredom and compromise?
Then again, maybe you and your partner have what i have been craving all my life, the eternal honeymoon, perhaps you are the ones about to prove my theory wrong.
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