The Dame is miffed that she hasn’t featured on the blog in a few weeks. Nothing self obsessed or weird about that, is there?
She seems to be better than on previous occasions. I mean, it has taken a great deal out of her, all this emotional upheaval. But she seems to be on a positive track. Also, I believe there is now a firm closure to her relationship with The Doctor.
In a conversation last week between us, I tried to make The Dame understand that things were probably difficult for The Doctor also.
If we imagine what it must feel like to be in a relationship with somebody who genuinely likes us and is faultless in their affection, and to then come across an overbearing fearing of love for somebody else which is somewhere inexplicable.
It takes a strong person to be able to end a relationship on these grounds and do it face to face. There is courage to be admired here, surely?
Sometimes, life throws things at us for which we are totally unprepared. At this moment in our lives, the choices we make are often the most crucial.
If we chose security over passion are we cowards?
If we chose instinctual passion over companionship are we selfish?
The Dame has been on a blind date recently which is most certainly a step in the right direction. I just hope her experiences haven’t frightened her and have instead formed an extra layer of protection to comfort her.
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- Tainted Visionary
- London, United Kingdom
- The Opening occurs like a dream, solid sand amongst parted waves, Each murmuring a hymn. Slowly. There I stand, and there you are, Staring into the abyss.
1 comment:
Duke,
Charmed I'm sure that you refer to be as possibly being self-obsessed/weird...if you could see my hair right now, as I sprawl very un-Dame like on the sofa, I'm sure you would revoke that comment (but I'll let you have the weird part)...
Am I feeling better? I think the simple answer is, on the outside maybe, inside I'm still hurting a lot. I am trying in vain to keep busy.
For those that don't know, I did text The Doctor one last time to get the answers I so desperately needed (contrary to advice given from many). Without recounting the exchange, she told me she had fallen in love with the girl she left me for and that there was nothing more she could say to me.
Any further questions I had at this time became redundant and I saw no point in asking them.
In response to the post, I don't doubt she exercised courage in telling me what she did, however, she told me she fell for the girl immediately, thus her courage is overridden somewhat by the cowardness of stringing me along for some considerable time before tearing my heart out. She could have ended it much sooner if she was so sure of what she felt.
The ins and outs of the human psyche and my own morals never fail to amaze me however, this seems to be more prevalent now as although the final text to her has brought closure - it still doesn't stop me wanting her back with every fibre in my body, because I miss her.
Yours,
-The Dame-
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