(Belated) Chronicles of The Dame

Note to readers: This entry has been written by a slag other than myself.

I turned a woman down the other day. We had seen a lot of one another and she was offering me it all, love, warmth, sex and a relationship. What did I do? Turn it down.

"I don't want you to be alone forever" said Mummy Dame "it terrifies me".

All my friends are well on their way to pairing off. Life partners? Who knows, but they are happy and the (majority) of them aren't interested in ditching their friends in favour of a toad in the hole. My mother is fully aware of this situation and chose to say the above with a quizzical look on her brow over a cheese toastie and a bowl of soup of all things. I find something has shifted between me and my mother, I can talk to her a little more than I used to be able too. Not a complete shift you understand but its a start.

My reply (although not verbatim) was something along the lines of: I am not choosing to stay single forever mum, its not something I desire but equally I don't see why I should settle for something that is not quite right when I believe that something magical is out there. I mean, I have been trying, I just always seem to pick wrong uns... I followed this up (bravely in my opinion) with: And I know its out there because I've experienced it.

Because of course I have, with The Doctor. I loved her, in fact nearly a year on and I still love her (much to Tainted's disgust), a fact I realised upon seeing her at the hospital just before Christmas. And more to Tainted's disgust I don't think I'll ever lose hope of her contacting me again asking if we could try again, I believe I'd do it because despite her being happy with someone else, never before have I known someone to get to me as she has Does that mean I'm stupid? Probably. Does the heart know when someone is your One? I think so. Is it the right thing to settle for just anyone if you can't find what you are looking for? Absolutely not. And, more importantly, are we wrong for taking the gamble in life and holding out for that something special (which we know exists), at the risk of never finding it and staying single forever? Yes, because at least we can say we have tried.

My mother seemed happy with the explanation given. For the time being anyway.

Yours,

-The Dame-